I am way too much or maybe too little to put into words or this box. I am everything and nothing at all. I have been through nearly every bad thing this earth has to offer. Now I want to continue my journey learning about me ,life and what its all for ,but mostly I'd like to pass in the things I wish someone would have told me that maybe would have prevented so much pain and suffering. I have live nearly every struggle u can imagine. I promise I jus look like this. I have been at the ugliest of lows ,not experiencing the happiness it seems everyone else does for any amount of time. To me true beauty comes from experiencing, living with or at some point having to become the ugliest in order to cope or survive this life. True beauty is never on the outside ,never to be seen with our eyes,only felt. If you have never experienced the darkest night you will never truly appreciate or understand the beauty or the true value of a warm summer day. Im q mother of three amazing now adults ,still not enjoying them adulting. Nit sure what to do next being g a mom was all I knew so now I'm out here lost it seems . Not sure of too much anymore except, life is hard and only gets harder. So buckle up this ride stays bumpy.

I think its amazing. We have got to change so much in this world staring with values. We value all the superficial things that carry no moral values . Things that teach us the opposite of the truth. We should be focused on our souls, how to grow ,how to love and put love in all we do . This world is so full of ugly ,hate,chaos, demeaning and degrading has become normal and acceptable. Young women are losing self respect, no longer valuing thier bodies or thier lives ,willing to give it all away for a few moments of feeling something...anything except the void ,this world needs all the positive help it can get .

Im humbled to the core ,humility is my middle name ,yet I refuse to let it break me ,turn my heart bitter or make me turn into someone im not, I'm not the brightest nor am I the prettiest , I have been through so much in this life and hopefully can prevent others from the pain I've experienced. We are all jus here winging it , no one's sure of anything lol we jus do the best we can with wat we kno.....hopefully I can help ease lifes hardship for someone ,I've battled addiction , loss, abusive relationships and motherhood abs somehow im still here ,not sure if its a blessing or curse ..... let you kno when I figure that one out